This post contains a discussion on suicide, psychosis, and abuse of power.
It might be best to look at it at another time if you are not in the headspace to explore those topics right now.
As many of you heard in my intro to episode 102 with Are Thoresen, kambo facilitator and former guest on the show, Tobias [last name removed on request of the family] died on July 11, 2019.
I mentioned in that intro that the context around his death was bizarre and that I would make a statement about it. This video is that statement.
(YouTube link for the video in case the above embedded video doesn’t work properly)
TL/DR: Tobias killed himself during a psychotic episode that was most likely brought on by, primarily, the excessive (daily) use of Bufo/5-MeO-DMT. This video discusses the context that led to and surrounds his suicide and why it’s relevant to us as a psychedelic culture.
[UPDATE August 6, 2019: I just got this message from someone close to Tobias…
“i don’t know if you know tobias was doing toad in high doses 7 – 8 times a day.” “there was a group around tobias treating him and feeding his manic behavior and supplying him with more toad and 0 integration”
I have no intention to update this post any further than here, all further updates and discussion will be on the subreddit post linked below.]
Beyond the video statement
Over the last year, Tobias and I hade been preparing an interview to as a follow up to his original interview, episode 51 Kambo: Cleansing The Spiritual Root Of Disease. Because of this preparation, much of the context of my interactions with Tobias over the last year had to do with demonic entity possession, its role in disease, and where psychedelics fit into this healing paradigm. Although that is the case, this video deals very little with that content and speaks mostly to the context that led to his suicide and why it’s relevant to us as a psychedelic culture. Yes, ok, perhaps demons were involved. I don’t know. But I don’t think putting energy into that line of questioning in the video provides anything more than greater confusion and paranoia.
However, If you would like to know more about what Tobias and I were working on, you will find some of our WhatsApp voice memos and my preparation notes below. In hindsight, there are some pretty spooky things contained in it. You can draw your own conclusions from there.
WhatsApp Voice Messages | Alt Link
(This is the relevant voice messages from our discussion, much of my responses were in text and did not add anything to the content here and thus the text dialogue and all unrelated voice messages between him and I have been excluded)
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