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See Below For Blog Entry on this episode as well as a complete topic breakdown.

Have you heard the good news of psychedelics?

These days, to many people, psychedelics can and with good reason represent a gateway or access point by which we engender freedom from the limiting confines of our social conditioning. Furthermore, the states of mind they awaken are interesting, very interesting. Some might even suggest that psychedelics are a direct route into great mythological patterns of Being beneath the small world of the ego; the ticket for your ride into the great frontiers of consciousness.

Truly, our first encounters with psychedelics can be profoundly positive. They can awaken in ourselves a connection with something so much grander than we might have been able to comprehend beforehand, perhaps striking us with the lightening of purpose, meaning, and wonder.

After being touched by this divine gift, we may want to run to the hills and cry it out to the world, or, in the modern equivalent, get on social media and youtube to bring the great gospel of psychedelics to those who have yet to touch it. Psychedelics are currently trendy and if you catch the right tone, the next thing you know your content has caught fire and you are now a psychedelic champion, a spokesperson, a cultural representative, advocate, a public figure.

But psychedelics are a precarious path and with one bad experience, the wonder once awakened with joy and magic becomes a world of pain, suffering, and trauma. In fact, the longer you walk the psychedelic path the more likely you are to watch that innocent twinkle fall tragedically from your eye and shatter everything you care about right in front of your vulnerable mind, reducing you to weeping heap of pain, sadness, and grief.

This can be a moment of profoundly positive transformation. It can also break you in a way that you never properly heal from. But either way, it calls the unfettered championing of psychedelics to halt. And then what does that mean if, by chance, you happen to have established your career and financial security on producing pro-psychedelic youtube content? How do you approach such a scenario?

Tom Zembrzuski, aka Your Mate Tom joins us for this episode of Adventures Through The Mind to talk about his journey from a psychedelic champion and youtube celebrity to a man traumatized, live on youtube, by the very substances he once promoted. We talk about what inspired him to produce psychedelic content on youtube, the process of getting internet famous, and the encounter with a timeless hell that sent him spiralling into post-traumatic stress disorder.

Tom’s courage to speak transparently about what he encountered on that chthonian trip and all the personal and professions complications that came from is truly inspiring. I hope this episode lands well for you.



Episode Breakdown

  • What Tom’s first psychedelic experience offered his life
  • How and why Tom got into being a psychedelic YouTuber
  • How YouTube popularity influenced Tom’s relationships to psychedelics
  • The post-ego-dissolution psychedelic ego trip
  • Tom’s traumatic psychedelic trip and how it impacted his relations to life and to psychedelics
  • Coming to terms with our own darkness
  • How Tom’s psychedelic trauma impacted his youtube content
  • Why keep drinking ayahuasca after it crushed you?
  • Tracking the emotional, psychological, emotional themes in order to integrate profound existential suffering
  • Using cynicisms, video games, and drugs to escape the reality of inner pain
  • Forgiveness and letting of bitterness and resentment
  • The impact of telling his youtube followers that he is renouncing psychedelics
  • The importance of talking about the negative potentials of psychedelics

Related Links

Your Mate Tom – homepage

Here you can find all the great stuff Tom is producing including in-depth blogs as well as his podcast and primary youtube channel

Tom’s 2nd channel, Raw Spirituality

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Tom is on patreon


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